Day 1 -5
Last week I started another lesson in Commune called The Desire Map Course taught by Danielle LaPorte. Why I didn’t start writing about it immediately is beyond me. I’m writing within the course, but have not been holding myself accountable to writing here also.
I have long been bemoaning the fact that somewhere I lost my dreams. As my life evolved, my old dreams seem to dissipate if not completely dissolve. I started my life again, as a single woman, my children grown and independent and I didn’t really know what to do with my life. I have simply been going with the flow, letting life lead me without much introspection as to what I really wanted or needed.
This course seemed like a good opportunity to dig a little deeper in to my psyche and maybe find some answers. I’ve done vision board work in the past, but it never really stuck for me. In some ways it seemed materialistically aspirational, but it didn’t seem to get deep into my bones. I found myself guilty for wanting too nice a car, or fancy vacations. Even focusing on more consistent yoga practice looked too exotic and fancy viewed through cut-outs of magazine ads.
I’m not going to share a step-by-step account here, because, it would feel like theft. But I will share my outcomes, if only to keep myself inspired and honest in my quest to live my Desire Map.
The first part of the course that I just completed today is a series of lessons that helped me hone down to the 5 core desired feelings that I want to develop in my life. It took ten days and lots of excavating; my feelings, my past, my present, my idealized future, dictionaries, thesauri to find more refined ways to discover what it was I really wanted to feel on a more regular basis. To be honest, what I thought I wanted in the beginning of the course was not necessarily what I ended up with.
My Core Desired Feelings: Love, Courage, Vision, Freedom, and Passion
These words while not wildly unique, may actually be unique to me in the way that I personally interpret them. I started with well over 30 words and honed them down to just these five.
There’s is a lot more work to do and I will try to share it here more regularly, but for now I am pretty happy with the work done so far. It was fun, and challenging and there were moments where I broke down and cried just from actually considering what I really wanted and who I really wanted to be.
I’m excited about this new journey and I can’t wait to see what I learn next.