Fine

One word
All you allow
When you ask how I am

Fine -
Freaked Out
Insecure
Neurotic
Enraged

All that is not 
even close to 
what I actually am

I am also in 
deep physical pain
my heart hurts

Not just 
figuratively
It does, but 

I am 
in literal pain
every part of me 
aches

No one word
can describe 
the grief 
surging through 
my veins

The Anger
The Fury
The Guilt
The Anguish
The Denial
The Despair
The Hopelessness
The Helplessness

So let me rest
let me be silent
let me heal
in my own time

Give me leave 
to not be 
Fine